Full Moon in Taurus: Digging Out the Muckiest of the Muck
By Cindy Morris
The good news and the bad news are exactly the same: if it’s happening in your life it’s about you. Sorry. I know that can be hard, but painfully true.
This Full Moon in Taurus (which I am already feeling to the nth) with the Sun in Scorpio conjunct Saturn means nothing but fun there as you sort through buried feelings, emotions, thought forms, patterned behaviors and responses- all rising to the surface of your awareness to sort through and decide which will remain and which will get tossed into oblivion never to sully your tender shores again.
For me it’s about communication (South Node in Gemini) and my persistent pattern of trying to express my needs for communication and connection to those who don’t want to hear about them, being chastised for having those needs, being told that I am selfish (which I’m sure I am), being told that LOVE will be taken away from me for having needs and expressing them, leaving me feeling wretchedly horrible. I think my needs are rather simple, which perhaps they are if I am not trying to get those needs met by those who can’t or don’t want to, or whose buttons get pushed by having needs expressed to them. Now if that isn’t THE dysfunctional pattern from my childhood I don’t know what else is. Following me? It’s a twisted, maze-like path when you venture down the path of embedded, ingrained pattens. Good luck with yours!
I could do what I usually do and submit to the chastiser, claim my needs as unfillable, and continue to feel horrible about myself for having needs at all, coupled with the audacity to express them, in the perfectly imperfect way that I do.
Ah, but this Full Moon, this one in particular, combined with the deep healing process I am in leading up to my own Saturn return, has me evaluating the situation a little differently. The Sun in Scorpio brings you to the depths of your emotional needs, your deepest fears and insecurities. The Full Moon in Taurus illuminates your core values, showing you what is deeply and viscerally important to you. Combine those two dynamics and you have quite the process.